Back from the Brink of Blog Death

Back from the brink of blog death

It’s officially been one year since my husband inexplicably quit his job and I found myself using the skills I’ve picked up blogging over the years to put food on the table. I went from blogger, to freelance writer, to casual all-rounder to where I am right now – a full-time permanent Digital Communications Officer who relies heavily on her background in Web design and a love of social media to get shit done.

Career Girl

Of course, turning a passion into a job has some unintended side-effects. For seven years I was in charge of setting the pace in our household as a stay-at-home mum. I could take as long as I wanted to write a blog post. If I got stuck on a piece, I could just ditch it, or play some games to unwind while I waited for inspiration to strike. At work, I don’t have that luxury – I’m on a deadline (and the wifi at work is too trash for Hearthstone).

Then there’s the sleep. Some days, I honestly have no idea how I make it to work. Miss K is still as snuggly as ever, and only Mummy can calm her when she wakes up all upset – which is almost every night. Still, words need to be written, graphics need to be made and Website issues need to be solved.

That means when I get home, I’m a zombie. In December of last year I officially ran out of time to complete my writing course. I couldn’t do it; I couldn’t balance work and study, especially not with a young child in the mix! Surprisingly, I actually felt relief when I got that email saying it was all over.

Turns out I don’t enjoy writing in a professional capacity as much as I thought I would. I’ve had a big taste of what it’s like to write in a corporate setting and I take too damned long to produce anything (That, and I suck at editing. Who knew?!).

R.I.P the Dream

Luckily, my full-time gig no longer requires me to write anywhere near as much as the other Communications Officers have to. They’re writing all these tough media releases about controversial local issues, and the last thing I wrote that required approval was an introduction to a theatre programme booklet… back at the start of January!

Which brings me to my blog. I haven’t written here since back in October, even though plenty of blog-worthy stuff has happened. I have also stopped writing for ANZ Heroes, the community website that I’ve been running with my husband since 2015.

Does this mean I don’t want to write anymore? I hated ANZ Heroes, I would cringe every time I was assigned a writing task at work and I lost out on exciting partnership opportunities because I just couldn’t find it within me to smash out a blog post here. It certainly sounds like I’m done with writing, but, I’ve finally figured it out. I don’t hate writing. I hate writing for other people.

Identity Crisis

Strangely, that includes my blog. Whatever it was trying to be when I started it doesn’t align with where I am today and trying to craft posts for it that matched that outdated vision felt like a chore. Like, what the hell even is a ‘gamer parent’? We don’t say ‘sport parent’ or ‘Netflix parent’ so why did I think gamer parent was a thing?

Like all the millions of blog posts out there offering advice to newbies says, you need to have a niche. Your blog needs to have a purpose. I was trying to be all the things to all the people, when really, I need to draw a line in the sand and say, ‘this is what my blog is about‘.

Blogging may lend itself really well to the real life side of things, whereas my YouTube channel would be better suited to my gaming shenanigans, or vice versa. I… I don’t really know. Should I even be worried, since it’s not like I’m trying to make a living out of this kind of stuff anymore.

What I do know is that I want to keep my tiny little corner of the internet alive. So, if you’re still reading this, I would love to hear from you about what made you actually like this blog in the first place.

I look forward to dusting off the cobwebs and giving this old girl a long overdue makeover. Hopefully it’s not too late for a rez!

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  • Whinkz

    The “thing” that keeps me coming back and reading your posts is just to read your point of view on whatever your writing about. I enjoy your style and enjoy reading your posts. I enjoyed reading about Hearthstone and the challenges and successes you were having, I enjoyed reading about the shirt you bought that you thought was too expensive, and I enjoyed reading this post. As none of that is related, I guess I just enjoy reading your perspective on stuff, whatever that stuff may be. 🙂

    • Thanks, Whinkz! It ‘s so liberating to know that people enjoy it when I write about whatever, instead of me being “chained” to one particular subject 🙂

  • Navimie

    Welcome back! You know I miss reading your thoughts 🙂 Though I wonder if you have time with all the other streaming etc and stuff you do!

    • Thank you! I know what you mean about finding time, but I’ve stopped working on all other projects and am just focusing on my own stuff for now. That, and my RAM died so my streaming is offline for the time being :'(

  • Kamalia

    Glad to see you again, Neri. I’d been wondering how you were doing.

    You say, “I hate writing *for other people*” So write this blog just for yourself, whatever that turns out to be! I find that I enjoy a blog most when I like the writer’s “voice” — not something I know if I can quantify or articulate — and when I can tell that the writer is enjoying what they are writing about.

    • Thanks, Kamilia, it’s great to be back!

      You’re absolutely right – I really should just write about what I enjoy! It sounds like it’s much more pleasurable for everyone involved.

  • Hi, Neri,
    Good to see you posting again (I should take the hint)! As a person who is trying to find their balance between being a gamer and his adult responsibilities, I appreciate reading your posts. I enjoy hearing your honest struggles with the same balance. Please post what you want to say, what helps you, and know there are others who appreciate what you have to say.

    • Hi Kanter, it’s great to hear from you again! Thank you so much for your kind words. It’s quite liberating knowing that I can say anything without trying to reach some imaginary quota of posts talking about x, y or z. Hopefully you can find some time in your schedule to start blogging again, too!